in the past few days,
a number of my friends have been bringing up
me going to new york.
i'll preface this post by stating that i am not, in fact, going to nyc
i have no immediate plans to do so, either
but it's been something that several people in my life
have been bringing up,
and i'm starting to think that perhaps
eventually
they may be on to something
i was chatting with a friend of mine,
and he mentioned my current theatrical projects.
he went on to say that i belonged in new york,
starving and happy and starring in some buzzed-about off-broadway show
rather than sitting behind a desk,
"throwing together marketing portfolios all day"
even as recent as today,
at church
several of my grandmother's "cronies" mentioned my going to the big apple
striking out on my own
making it big
the thought alone terrifies me.
i don't know anyone there.
i suppose the opportunity has crossed my mind a time or two,
but i've always brushed it off.
after all, my resume is less than impressive,
or even formidable
and i've seen it happen where,
a local star has packed up and moved her entire life
only to fall flat on her face and limp back home to nashville.
i don't know
maybe it's in the cards
perhaps i just lack the courage,
and i'm hiding behind excuses
"i have a job here"
"i want to build my resume up"
"i want to be close to my family"
or maybe i'm being responsible?
in any event,
it's been something itching at me for the past few weeks